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Book: The Long Way Home by Benjamin Smile

Book Review: The Long Way Home by Benjamin Smile

categories: Book, Memoir, Recovery, OCD, Abuse, Gambling, Child Abuse, Alcoholism, True Story, Addiction


Benjamin Smile

about this book: Benjamin's stunning memoir takes us on a shocking rollercoaster journey through childhood trauma, abuse, OCD and addiction. It is painful, yes, but it's also funny, crazy, surprising and ultimately hopeful and inspirational.

If you ever thought you were too lost to find the way home, too far beyond help even God gave up on you, then this book will prove otherwise.

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I should be on my way to hand over £ 67,000 to a drug dealer notorious for hurting and killing people. Instead, I'm sitting at a private poker game. I shouldn't be here. I should have resisted the temptation to sit down at this table. But resist? Me? That would be a first. I drill it into my head not to go one pound into the £ 67,000 that I have to hand over to the dealer. My goal is to double what is mine and walk. Then it happens: I'm dealt an ace and a ten of hearts. I casually check, and so does the man opposite me, he looks at me and stares. I stare right back: I got two decent cards, and if this fucker thinks he can phase me, he is sorely mistaken.

Once, many years ago, I was a happy little boy, but I changed.

It started when my dad took his talented banking brain across the ocean to America, and took us all with him.

It was a whirlwind for a young boy who'd already bounced between three different schools in two different countries, learning by the ripe old age of six how it feels to make friends and find security and then lose them in an instant. All my parents wanted was what's best for the family. But you know what they say about a certain road paved with good intentions: wishing for it is one thing; providing it, something else entirely. A lot of life is trial and error. Get it right, and you reap the rewards; get it wrong, and you pay the price. Soon I will pay a price that no amount of zeros at the end could ever justify.

I've done some bad things in my life, and though I could lay blame on others, it was me who did them. Some closest to me think that my drinking, cocaine, crime, pretty women, fast cars and fine-dining caused the bad times. Me, I think they got me through.

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 Great read, very thought provoking

Normally this kind of book tends to be heavy, but Benjamin Smile's book is a real page turner, better than most thrillers. I found the story really thought provoking and surprising (especially what he gets into before giving up, it was a real visit to the world of crime and glamour) but also really moving. I think its juts how this kind of book should be, honest warts and all showing how you go down to rock bottom and then climb back up again. Highly recommended! [by Natasha McLear]

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